You may or may not have gathered from other posts on here that I want a baby. More than anything really. We have 2 brilliant not so little people, but for as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to expand our family with 1 possibly 2 more. Spud is 7 now so you could say nature has not been kind to us. I seem to struggle with the whole getting pregnant gig and then seem to struggle with the staying pregnant part too (another story for another time).
I’m getting on a bit now – well I’m 35 – so in baby making terms I’m what the Drs like to think of as old. I wanted my babies to be close in age – 13 & 7 wasn’t exactly what I had in mind. But I’m failing massively at this whole being a woman & having babies bit.
It gets me down.
It makes me mad.
Then it makes me feel ungrateful for wanting more – which gets me down again.
Rinse & repeat. It’s an endless cycle.
Last year I was selected to take part in the Clearblue trials. I though this was it, it was going to work, we were finally going to have another baby.
It didn’t – it made me mad, then it made me sad. Rinse & repeat.
Over the years many people we know have been pregnant, had babies, rinse & repeat. But we’re still waiting…..